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New Dom – French

I found this on one Happn. He if half French Half Lebanese.

Lets just say things got intense as soon as he told me about last nights antics. He said how he took a girl home, tied her up, blindfolded her, fucked her and ….. got his friend to come and do the same while she was no wiser!

WOW! He is a voyeur, pervert and my master.

Our Whatsapp conversation soon changes to sex….. he had a new approach, “my last happn date I took her to 40 Pont street” he went silent for me to research. Agent Provocoteur store. I reply “so the boy likes lingerie?”

“I made her cum for the 1st time in the changing rooms” he proceeds to send an image of cuffs (ankle and hand) neatly positioned on his bed. I tell him “Aw that’s sweet” but actually nerves have set in and I think This is going to be very interesting. ….

He is small (only 5’6 – Damn it!), dark, good teeth, intelligent and devilishly handsome. He has a very sinister side, I can tell.

He walked into the bar just as I was finishing a conversation with my drunken mother! He kisses me on both cheeks and straight away goes in for the lip kiss. I back off and say goodbye to my mother!!

We sit out on a balmy summers night. Its 9pm so slowly getting dark, allowing peoples alter egos be unveiled. It doesn’t take long for the conversation to turn to my 1st Dom (Italian Stallion), fetlife and what he likes. He wants to watch other men fuck me. I scared yet excited. He will not fuck me until someone else has.

I make lingering eye contact and I feel strangely relaxed talking with him.

I politely excuse myself to go to the bathroom and stand. “Bring me your string” I smile and do so.

I have never done that before. He puts them in his pocket but brings them out as assess them, he likes them but says they are not as wet as expected. He replaces them, “lets go to a club” I know exactly what he means. He wants to dominate the scene with me in the middle. I agree on the condition that he looks after me. “I will have full control of everyone around you” as his hadn slides in my bra and pinches my nipples, hard. I wince, he grins.

He decides he wanted to see the goods 1st . As we walk, his hand dives down my jeans and inside me, of course I am wet. As people pass the otherside of the street, I realise that there is someone behind and I pull him out and nervously laugh.

We walk down to his basement flat in South Ken. He stops in the small dark courtyard “Take your Trousers off” here. Now” I look at him nervously and do so.

FFFUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKK!!!

In the process I rip the new canella out of my leg! Shit! I stop and explain that he has 45 min. we go inside and I take the trousers off and place the pump in my bag. Shit! Fuck!

The flat is surprisingly spacious, open plan and of course tidy. I continue into his bedroom where he stands proud with a leather crop in hand. Its smaller and blacker than the itallian’s. “turn around” I obey and grip onto the door frame preparing for a split second befor the leather makes contact with my round ass cheeks. My winces get louder as my grip tightens. And then nothing. Im scared to turn around without his permission. Whack. It’s a new sort of leather this time and I catch it out of the corner of my eye. It’s a full length (about 4ft) whip. Its feels good as the leather and metal wrap my arse. My body language collapses at the last stroke and he responds. He’s good.

He strokes down my spine and flips my hips to face him. He kisses me hard against the wall as his feet push my legs apart. Stepping back he admires what is now his, then slaps my cunt hard and walks off to the kitchen. The front door is open the whole time and im nervous of a friend turning up!

He smokes his spliff in the kitchen and invites me to join and stand for him. His work burns to the surface, oh how ive missed it!

He asks about the pump and I try to reassure him that I’ll be fine as long as I swing by home 1st, thinking I’ll leave it off and inject so not to risk it happening again. He spanks me with his bare hand as I pull on his spliff. I missed that too.

Get dressed, I obey. He continues with the questioning. He sounds nervous and I try to reassure him… oh how the tables have turned!

We get an Uber and he changes his mind on the way. “I need to read up on this 1st” its sort of sweet really. He wants to care for me, beat me, romance me, make me his. Done.

City Rugby “Dom”

He thinks a “Dom” is an abusive uncaring man empowering his arrogance beyond his years….. Wrong!

My god! We’d been texting (met on Fet) for a week. I got drunk on a Tuesday with an American tourist, obviously not hot because I would have fucked him.

The date was running out of steam, he was Americanly annoying, loud and some of the things said were just bit strange, even by my standards.   I even rang my best friend to save me in Chelsea but she too was drunk and bailed. He walked me to Chelsea bridge and my bus was right there.

I had been texting him a little in the day, “rugbyLad” that is and told him I’d be back in junction at 1945. I was back at 1930, just enough time for a shot, a line and a tidy up. Standing in the cold I felt the booze relax me and the drugs help my speech and awareness.

He had never been kind, always played the role – “Hard Dom” never allowed to know him. He demanded, unshaven, false tan and coming straight to mine (he lived with 4 other rugby boys – my god, I know his sort already). I was adamant about meeting in pubic for safety and said, “I cant care about a dom, unless I know him” Haha! Good Line!

Gutted by my own standards.

Was more than angry with my father from the morning before and searched to piss him off, thus hurting myself. My Dad was flippant and abrupt. Dismissing anything I said. All I could think of was, this is him letting me go for his proud son to take the reigns, God (or Allah – or whatever other religion he decides to hide behind) forbid that I (a girl) could do it. He had a meeting with someone who wanted to buy his stake in a football club which he had just disclosed was worth £8 – 10 million, immediately after me. In fact the man came over as I left, my father saying, “one in one out” and didn’t even try to introduce me. He had just told me how my sister’s fiancé was a waster and had a go that I hadn’t been more proactive in a scheme that I was living off, First I’d fucking heard that I’d have to be! I was hurt. Is he cutting ties?

The tears are missing my cheeks and pouring from my eyes as I write. He has lost care for the family that he betrayed so badly. I am lost.

I meet RugbyLad outside the station and we walk to mine. He is tall, very handsome, Very well dressed and very macunian! I express my doubt about a rugby union lad from Manchester, “more league, no?” then continue about the age gap. He is 24. “Im not young” he snaps.

He grabs me arse as we walk back and I push him off, he tries again as we enter my building and I repeat. We haven’t even kissed on the cheek. He looks annoyed and I am thankful that a girl joins us in the lift up to the 10th floor. I say he’s young and he brushes it off with a smirk and a tight squeeze the shoulder.

We barely make eye contact let alone kiss. The front door shuts, he pushes my shoulders down and I shove him off. “like that is it?” I push past and have my back to him in the kitchen. Next thing I know, coat and scarf still on , he shoves my head to the cold surface of the island and hits me. I like it. The contact races through me. There is a sting but nothing compared to what is about to happen. He pushes his body against mine and my hips rub the had surface. He seems like he knows what he is doing when he undoes my jeans and pulling them down. A soft brush followed by a hard, very hard spank with his bare hand. He continues and it stings more. My winces get louder and my hands try to prevent further. He pins them to the other side of the island. “Are you going to keep them there? For who?”

“You, Sir”

“Good slut”

He continues to spank me hard.

He starts to push what I assume is his cock against my cunt. Usually I’d be wet,   This time I am not. Not sure if it is the drugs or the fact that he has not done any ground work, not even a drink “Do you want me to go?”

“No, of course not. Why do you say that?”

He spits on my cunt and says, “because it seems like you don’t want me here”

My cunt wraps around his (average) cock and I moan – I’ve Learnt it makes them a little excited!

He fucks me hard and I love it. He pulls out and spanks me harder than before. He has something in his hand this time. “Do you deserve me? Tell me. Beg me. You want to be bruised?”

I can already feel the bruises rising to the surface. The sting. “Yes, Sir. Of course! I want you to fuck my tight cunt” I feel that please him as his breathing gets faster as he fucks me even harder. He pulls my hair as he pulls out and pushes me towards my bedroom. “I want you naked and touching yourself when I come in there.”

I quickly strip… Im still wearing my cross body bag for fuck sake! In only my bra and Insulin pump he returns as I am on my knees at the end of the bed, adjusting my pump to 0% basal to take it off.

“What the fuck is that?” He says sternly and the accent runs through me.

“insulin pump. Don’t worry im taking it off but just be careful of this” Pointing at the canella on my stomach.  “ You’re not going to fit on me, are you?” I feel like turning around and saying, “fuck off out my house you IGNORRANT FUCKWIT!”

But I don’t. Instead I sense at first a sense of fear and when he asks again? Almost a care? Haha…. Yeah right. I don’t think he’ll call again partially because of that.

I am lying face down and he jumps on top. For the first time ever someone notices my birthmark; a small dent at the top of my butt crack – think its where by “tail” used to be!

He slams his body into mine and grabs my throat. Fucking hard and fast then 2 hard thrusts as he grunts loudly, making me cum and moan. Stood at the end of my bed he pulls me by my hair towards his hard cock, shoving it down my throat. It’s the first time I’ve seen his size. As it hits the back of my throat I let him fuck it as I concentrate on my breathing (or lack of). Calm. He fucks harder and I feel the lack of air rush to my head and push him hard. He doesn’t budge holding me that split second longer. “you whore!” His hand gropes the back of my head and my throat, fucking my face again. My breathing is concentrated and calm. The drugs and alcohol kick in. He picks me up by my hair, bites and slaps my pert tits and throws me on the bed. My eyes are shut as requested as he briefly leaves the room. “on your stomach”

I do as an obedient sub does and I feel my cashmere scarf that I was wearing as he fucked me over the counter, wrap around my eyes and down my back to bind my hands. I only let him do one and he questions my trust. Breaking out of my role I say sternly “Yes” adding that I broke my shoulder so cant physically put my arm there (I can but it’s very much a trust thing).   This binding makes me think he’s done it before. It’s certainly no Shibari but it’s a good knot. He continues to fuck me as he pleases spanks me hard on the stings and reaches around to grope and whispers, “who’s great tits are these? I am pleased with how pert they are.” “Yours Sir” I respond. He spanks me hard and my winces get louder and he softly strokes his work and slaps me one more time. I yelp and my forehead wrinkles in pain.

I begin to feel like shit, emotionally. Sobering up I think. He flips me. “your pert tits deserve it next” Spits in my mouth (Ahh! Fucking disgusting prick!). I swallow. Still blindfolded, I suddenly feel something plastic make a solid slap contact with my nipple “Fuck!”

“Don’t move”

He continues and I can feel his fingers inside me getting wet. “ you like it my little whore!”

“Yes, sir”

I feel the bed dip next to me as his breathing gets louder and the tone in his voice increase. He’s nearly there. I want to suck it (my blooming sheets!) but its too late and he cums on my face and chest.

I roll onto my side and take the blindfold off. My fucking cashmere scarf is covered in fucking cum! Great! Thank you! I am in a ball on the bed and he checks if I’m ok. Only the 2nd time he’s come out of the Dom roll. After I say yes fine he asks again and I snap, “yes. It’s fine” and put my pyjamas on. He gets dressed back into his smart attire – He has a birthday drinks…. Bollocks! I had mentioned that my best friend recognised him from the gym and he asked about how I had bought him up. Having spotted him on POF I said that I was going on a date with him from that. He seemed panicked. “Tell her she got it wrong and it wasn’t me” I agree and try to reassure that I won’t share what he has just done, even though in the back of my mind I am probably going to show my bruises tomorrow…. Say part of the story anyway! He obviously doesn’t want people knowing about this side of him, but then again his face is on Fet!

He compliments my apartment and heads for the door. “don’t be pissed or upset” I smirk and shut the door in his face.

I know nothing about the manc. He certainly has issues – That’s rich coming from me I know. He was young I know, probably inexperienced (certainly compared to the Italian) and obviously got away with murder being handsome, very clever and big (in stature). He was your or my, stereotypical city rugby boy.

Doubt I’ll see him again….. Other in my bloody gym!!

Men – 2 in one night -Filling my time at least

Food – minimal

Exercise – Sexercise??

Diabetic Bikram Problems – Penny Dropped!

So when I lost my Bikram V plates I was 18 on leaving. This is pretty standard after a gym session with the liver releasing glucose for your muscles that are screaming out for energy. Fine. However, 4 hours later I was up at 22… What the fuck?! I was thirsty, tired and my vision was a little blurred. I put it down to something to do with last day of insulin cartridge, so I changed my cannula.

But today (only blooming 6 days later) the penny dropped. I am in a room of 43 degrees and 50% humidity, of course my insulin in the cartridge is “gone off”

There is no such thing as an insulin that can’t behave identically to what the human body, normal human at least, produces.

Next session I will be leaving my pump outside in my shoes so I can continue using the same cartridge and not waste the insulin, cartridge and canella!!

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New years, New Bugger all!

After a lovely Christmas with sea swimming, pool jumping and of course WAY too much food it was back to London. The most exercise I did was move from the sofa to the fridge and bathroom so back to London to stop eating and get my heart rate up once more!

Speaking of heart rate I haven’t had a fuck since L (a highly damaged, 33 year old, twice married man from Dubai. He doesn’t drink, smokes weed and is very dominant, but we have not fully disclosed that yet.) a week before Christmas and I am chomping at the bit!! However I did have an oral session with a local…. Who’s mother is best friends with mine, oopsy! Ha. Good practice I guess and proving that all blokes are a little different. L likes slow, deep, very deep oral while he plays with me. The other likes sucking his head while speedily stroking his shaft and tickling his balls. Each to their own, as they say and as I say’ give to get – just rude if they don’t and these 2 are!

The food has quite simply gone so way out of hand. I was on a non stop binge and avoiding blood tests!. The combination of not having enough of a break to have a true reading and avoiding seeing those double figures. My belly has returned with a vengeance (see pics). Oh and dear lord! My arms!!!! I don’t even know where to begin. And FUCK ME!! Where has my jaw line gone? More chins than a Chinese phone book. Ive turned into rolly fucking polly and it needs to change!

As soon as I arrive in London im off to do a hill spin class and then on New Years Eve I did a gruelling 90 min Bikram Yoga session before donning a glitter dress and heels. Yup that’s right I dressed up!

NYE was on a boat with 119 gays – and the bloody the best yet! Boobs were on full show and the dress was full sparkle! Even the gays loved my tits! The booze was flowing and the amount of drugs being consumed was about as subtle as a punch in the ovary – 1 guy was clinging onto a wall saying “im loving this hole!” As I looked over his partner for the night and I had the drug connection. “We all know whats going on, as long as everyone is looking out for one another”   It was only back at a house party where I shared my white stuff with my cousin and one of the biggest entertainment recruiters in the country, that I learned they were all on blooming MD! Ha. Sharing is caring…… made me question how much they loved me and my tits though. As always I wanted another place to go and ended out in bloomin Dalston (again!) with 2 that I had met just an hour earlier. Thinking they were gay I thought it was all good. Smashing the organic vodka and more lines the host retired to bed and the other invites me to cuddle on the couch. Sure he’s gay after all! WRONG!!! He started stroking and the usual brushing of the tit and kissing my head. AAAAHHHHH! I bailed so fast I got and Uber. Bank account minus £55, Brain cells minus,cant even count that far any more and dignity? Fuck lost that years ago!

My bloods this night began rather high (18.2) due to Bikram high. This was no helped later on by the fact that the boat did not stock Slimline tonic (Pfff! You’d think they would but no). So I had the 2 that were given to me and gave myself 2 bolus units and switched to the good old skinny bitch (Vodka, FRESH lime and soda – Cordial tastes like bleach!). A few hours later I was down at 7 and the “Party Basal rate” went on along with a temp basal of 0% for 2 hours. 2 hours, ½ gram and countless drinks later equalled a bg of 8. The first house party saw the pressure test…. Blood test infront of people including a doctor. Naturally I bragged about how amazing my Accu-check mobile was “it’s the best bloodtest out there and its only because of this that I do so many blood tests” and the “Meter error” appeared 4 times!!! Finally it worked and tah dah 6.6! Phew. Avoided the next day due to, well, Making up for burned calories and raised heart beats the night before!!

Still the best night of fireworks, Kylie, dancing like a tit (great tits though) and more snogs than ever, EVER!!! Why my mother question my sexuality and why im single, I’ll never know! Ha.

Bikram is getting a little better ( I dont want it to be easier) and ive found a new challenge. My hips simply don’t rotate so one new goal is to be able to do “The Tree” I cant even get my leg above my knee let alone by my hip!! But I also discovered a new problem with the pump, well the cannula. So im keeping the pump in my shoes outside the heated room of sweat, which keeps it cool so not to make the insulin null and void. Great. But with my new ability to stretch a little further on the backwards bend the stickyness of the canella (not helped with a small douse of sweat either) started to slip away from my skin. So much of the adhesive had let go an hour in I had to pull it out and thus had to run back home pretty sharpish to suppress some of the rush of sugar into my blood stream. I was 28! Bloody wonderful!

In a foul mood I have just booked 3 dates. Tomorrow’s is with an Italian kinkster. He loves spanking, whipping, master/slave and wants to here about what I was thinking about (him) the other day…. Going to read some kink to have him wrapped around my little finger in public!! The secont is a guy covered in tats from tinder. Ive told him id like to explore and push boundaries sexually – I don’t think he has any idea, really but the bruises on my arse will be a sure give away! Ha). The third and final of the week? Well….. this is going to be an extremely kinky, sordid affair. Booked into a hotel not been told where yet. Im excited!!

Food: Back to little more than normal

Exercise : Getting there but need to up to loose the gut

Men: Well, seems my Gay-dar was off and bad moods leads to book too many!!

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Was Geri Right? Bikram yoga virginity lost!

Was Geri Right?

Friday – 12/12/14

Before I begin i am writing this on the 18th, Blogging everyday may be totally unrealistic but I will do it as much as I can, sometimes ever more than one story a day ….. For real time updates im constantly revieling probably too much on my twitter @blacklaced88 – go on, give us a follow!

So I lost my bikram yoga virginity today……. Well. Wow! It’s a 90 minute class and lets say Im still torn. Quite frankly, I think yoga, breathing in, breathing out, hmmmm, stretching blah blah is dull. Give me a spin class any day. However the heat and humidity has bought a whole new dimension. At about 60 min in I thought I was going to projectile vomit or faint. It was intense but it took a certain mental capacity to overcome it and I did.

I went into the class at 11 and worrying about the combination of a new exercise, heat and the length I ate ½ a pack of mini haribo’s. I couldn’t imagine anything more embarrassing than having a hypo in public, let alone in a new class, full of new people.

While I was there I discovered I am only flexible in 1 direction and that’s bent over (quel surprise – Guess it could be practice!), the other directions I was struggling. My heart was pounding, racing and breathing hard and fast. It felt like a HIIT session and the sweat?! Holy moly! Wet. That’s the only way I can describe it. I was dripping and my towel soaked through and that was before the class had started. Within a minute of being in there, I was down to my Sports bra. I hate my jelly belly, feeling it jiggle with every step, blaming insulin sites but I couldn’t give a shit. Off my top went. I wish I could have taken my leggings off but I wouldn’t want the police called for indecent exposure or being sectioned! Ha.

On exiting I did another BG. 18!! Bloody hell. Thirsty, Thirsty, High bloods Thirsty! Put mu pump back on, Bolused and crack on with the day. The worry of going hypo is also to do with the similar symptoms of course to pushing your body and mind physically. Sweating, increased heart rate, blurred vision, shaking, headache, nausea and possibly slurring!

While in the room at 43 degrees and 50% humidity I hated it. It took a lot of mental energy to stay. But afterwards as I sat in the fresh air (still dripping) I felt exhilarated, hungry and suddenly cold! I am looking forward to the pain tomorrow. Geri Haliwell once proclaimed on her jumper that “Yoga Kills” Lets see shall we….

“POP”….. There goes my Blogging Cherry

I have decided that I am going to do an experiment all about weight loss, food, drink and real life living.

“Just another one of those looking for attention and a little motivation to get through it” I hear you all say.

Well, yes. However I have 2 new angles to come from. Firstly I have type 1 diabetes. Had it since 1992 and am (trying) to control it with an insulin pump. Secondly, and this is the biggie…. It’s 10 days before Christmas and no I am not going to stop eating mince pies, drinking (copious amounts) or a turkey dinner or several.

SHIT!! Yes I will be taking pictures getting bigger or smaller and yes I will be brutally honest. The honesty will be EVERYTHING from drinking, fried and baked goods (mmmm Baked goods) to drug intake and fucking….. It is exercise after all.

The reason I want to do it? See if it is possible to “live” without being that wet wipe at a party drinking soda water and only having the 1 lettuce wrap. And its also a personal challenge of controlling my bloods and quite possible remembering a little more of my London nights.

My accounts are very honest and open from my drug and alcohol consumption to my sexual encounters and dates. Weighty issues also.

I will try to blog everyday.

Please be aware that this is not medical advice and is solely from my personal experience, encounters and my thoughts.

This is day one I guess….