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The very much older gent

I am going on a reactionary date tonight with a so called “CityGent”

Cant even remember exactly how old, but I remember he is over 50!

This is a knee jerk reaction to my father’s newest antics. He has not even told me himself, it came through the grape vine. He is expecting a girl. Even though I have been expecting this news due to My fabulous Uncle said that Dad had asked how to spell “Elizabeth” ( my Gu’s name).

The son he had was because he wanted a son, but now having a daughter confirms that I am simply not good enough.

My sex was not the problem it is simply me as a human. I don’t know what to feel.

Hurt, pain, hate, anger, revenge and sadness.

He is 64! What I simple don’t understand is the fact that his father died when he was 15 so he knows how it feels to be missing a parent.

I say that but my mother bought me and my sister up single handily with only his allowance into her bank account for support.

I know it’s pretty fucked up but this “CityGent” guy actually seems sweet (with a wonderful dark side of course). Even though older he has a similar “why not” and “Id rather be out experiencing new things rather than sat at home” approach as I do.

Meeting him in Moorgate (I’ll be getting on my happen and tinder too of course – easy city boys!) and going to a new Wine bar that he’d like to try.

Im actually excited. He’s tall, kinky and good escape but hope he isn’t too old looking!!

Isnt it funny How a submissive subconsciously attracts the dominant?

Isnt it funny How a submissive subconsciously attracts the dominant?

Barney, the Tuesday tinder date was sweet, funny and spontaneous. After chatting and joking for only an hour he asks, “can I be ballsey?”

Come on then….. Why did you bother asking that?!

“Would you like to go for a drink?”

“thought you would never ask”

“Northcote in 10 minutes?!”

“Haha. Just taken Night Nurse so cant be a dribbling mess!” This is a lie. Im just hungover, tired and cant be asked to get ready and chat small talk!

So we arrange to meet Tuesday instead. NC at 8pm. Great and I start thinking about what to wear. He has joked about trainers so trainers it is, my favourite Liberty print of course (always a good test too).

Chatting and being silly in the day he informs me that he has a works drinks launch (he works for a food and drink consultancy).

I automatically think he’s making his excuses. “Is that you bailing on me already?” Or is he? “Or just informing me that youre going to be half cut when we meet?”

He proceeds to tell me that it’s a gin launch no less and due to my love of all things gin invites me. It’s strange and funny but then so am I!

I oblige! Why the fuck not?!

Im nervous. Im in wet look ish Joni Jeans, flowery sheerish shirt and lace bra of course, topped with my Miu Miu studded flats and Liberty Barbour (Phew, dropped a few names there!) I am shaking and sweating on the packed rush hour tube to London bridge. Still shaking I walk into The Craft House an see what I think is him straight ahead. He is certainly not as good looking as his 1 face picture and a strange mouth! He is cute and chatty but Im struggling to see passed his massive lips and bad teeth…..

We walk to the arches near by where there is a bar set up in the distillery. With Very strong martinis in hand, he turns work mode, handing out his business card and I never saw the bottom of my martini glass. At a second bar in Farringdon I feel the gin hit as hard as the sectret door to the bar! Few lines will sort me out. He gets more drunk and more annoying but I stick it out as we live around the corner and need a taxi home! He gets very drunk and not touchy at all in the cab (!). I feel obliged to look after him, so I make sure he gets home ok…… Of course.

The drunken vanilla date soon became twisted as soon as his bedroom door was shut. Pushing me hard against it, testing my reaction he watched me take my clothes off as he did his. Examining my lumps and bumps he ran his hand down my waist line, down around my arse as his other grabs the back of my head. Pressing his body hard into mine and pulling my in at the same time. My leg wraps around him and I feel his excitement rise. He turns our entangled bodies around and throws me onto the bed. With a coy smile on my face, He knows I’m just as twisted. “Spread your legs and lie back” I obey. I hear the rustle of a wrapper and wait. Heart racing. His tongue dives between my thighs and starts flicking and sucking on my throbbing clit. I clench about to cum. “Did I say you can cum yet?!” He is sat up straight and flips me onto my stomach. I feel his eyes gaze on my round arse and he smirks.  His palm spanks me hard and the fire races to the surface. I feel the welts dimple and swell. He repeats harder and more. My fists clench onto the bedding as I wince.

My bruises have risen high it’s dark but he can still feel them. Feel the heat coming of his marks, feel the blood broken underneath. As he pounds me from behind he is reassured that he has hurt me enough. He knows I enjoy it but as a good dom he knows when his sub’s pain has had enough. I moan as I cum again. He pulls out a little out of breath and lies next to me. I know what I am to do. Still on all fours I crawl down between his legs and tease at first with a lick and twist of my tongue around his head. I can feel the heat of the blood rushing to his tip as I suck hard and it hits the back of my throat. His hands push me down further but I cannot, just suck as he realises, in long hard motions.

“You’re such a fucking slut! My ducking whore”

It just doesn’t sound right coming from his mouth. I pull away, look up, look into his eye and smile. My tongue twists again around his  balls this time and I suck hard while he tugs himself. His groans become loader and I can feel he Is about to cum. I feel him tense in my mouth, grunts loud and long. I’ve missed the a bit that is on his stomach, but taste the final drops and suck him clean. His legs tense and hands grips my hair and he relaxes. I lift up and view his stomach, “clean it”

I gaze into his eyes, give a little giggle, hand through his hairy chest and collapse to his side. His hand on my waist and snores seconds later reassure me, he’s happy.

New years, New Bugger all!

After a lovely Christmas with sea swimming, pool jumping and of course WAY too much food it was back to London. The most exercise I did was move from the sofa to the fridge and bathroom so back to London to stop eating and get my heart rate up once more!

Speaking of heart rate I haven’t had a fuck since L (a highly damaged, 33 year old, twice married man from Dubai. He doesn’t drink, smokes weed and is very dominant, but we have not fully disclosed that yet.) a week before Christmas and I am chomping at the bit!! However I did have an oral session with a local…. Who’s mother is best friends with mine, oopsy! Ha. Good practice I guess and proving that all blokes are a little different. L likes slow, deep, very deep oral while he plays with me. The other likes sucking his head while speedily stroking his shaft and tickling his balls. Each to their own, as they say and as I say’ give to get – just rude if they don’t and these 2 are!

The food has quite simply gone so way out of hand. I was on a non stop binge and avoiding blood tests!. The combination of not having enough of a break to have a true reading and avoiding seeing those double figures. My belly has returned with a vengeance (see pics). Oh and dear lord! My arms!!!! I don’t even know where to begin. And FUCK ME!! Where has my jaw line gone? More chins than a Chinese phone book. Ive turned into rolly fucking polly and it needs to change!

As soon as I arrive in London im off to do a hill spin class and then on New Years Eve I did a gruelling 90 min Bikram Yoga session before donning a glitter dress and heels. Yup that’s right I dressed up!

NYE was on a boat with 119 gays – and the bloody the best yet! Boobs were on full show and the dress was full sparkle! Even the gays loved my tits! The booze was flowing and the amount of drugs being consumed was about as subtle as a punch in the ovary – 1 guy was clinging onto a wall saying “im loving this hole!” As I looked over his partner for the night and I had the drug connection. “We all know whats going on, as long as everyone is looking out for one another”   It was only back at a house party where I shared my white stuff with my cousin and one of the biggest entertainment recruiters in the country, that I learned they were all on blooming MD! Ha. Sharing is caring…… made me question how much they loved me and my tits though. As always I wanted another place to go and ended out in bloomin Dalston (again!) with 2 that I had met just an hour earlier. Thinking they were gay I thought it was all good. Smashing the organic vodka and more lines the host retired to bed and the other invites me to cuddle on the couch. Sure he’s gay after all! WRONG!!! He started stroking and the usual brushing of the tit and kissing my head. AAAAHHHHH! I bailed so fast I got and Uber. Bank account minus £55, Brain cells minus,cant even count that far any more and dignity? Fuck lost that years ago!

My bloods this night began rather high (18.2) due to Bikram high. This was no helped later on by the fact that the boat did not stock Slimline tonic (Pfff! You’d think they would but no). So I had the 2 that were given to me and gave myself 2 bolus units and switched to the good old skinny bitch (Vodka, FRESH lime and soda – Cordial tastes like bleach!). A few hours later I was down at 7 and the “Party Basal rate” went on along with a temp basal of 0% for 2 hours. 2 hours, ½ gram and countless drinks later equalled a bg of 8. The first house party saw the pressure test…. Blood test infront of people including a doctor. Naturally I bragged about how amazing my Accu-check mobile was “it’s the best bloodtest out there and its only because of this that I do so many blood tests” and the “Meter error” appeared 4 times!!! Finally it worked and tah dah 6.6! Phew. Avoided the next day due to, well, Making up for burned calories and raised heart beats the night before!!

Still the best night of fireworks, Kylie, dancing like a tit (great tits though) and more snogs than ever, EVER!!! Why my mother question my sexuality and why im single, I’ll never know! Ha.

Bikram is getting a little better ( I dont want it to be easier) and ive found a new challenge. My hips simply don’t rotate so one new goal is to be able to do “The Tree” I cant even get my leg above my knee let alone by my hip!! But I also discovered a new problem with the pump, well the cannula. So im keeping the pump in my shoes outside the heated room of sweat, which keeps it cool so not to make the insulin null and void. Great. But with my new ability to stretch a little further on the backwards bend the stickyness of the canella (not helped with a small douse of sweat either) started to slip away from my skin. So much of the adhesive had let go an hour in I had to pull it out and thus had to run back home pretty sharpish to suppress some of the rush of sugar into my blood stream. I was 28! Bloody wonderful!

In a foul mood I have just booked 3 dates. Tomorrow’s is with an Italian kinkster. He loves spanking, whipping, master/slave and wants to here about what I was thinking about (him) the other day…. Going to read some kink to have him wrapped around my little finger in public!! The secont is a guy covered in tats from tinder. Ive told him id like to explore and push boundaries sexually – I don’t think he has any idea, really but the bruises on my arse will be a sure give away! Ha). The third and final of the week? Well….. this is going to be an extremely kinky, sordid affair. Booked into a hotel not been told where yet. Im excited!!

Food: Back to little more than normal

Exercise : Getting there but need to up to loose the gut

Men: Well, seems my Gay-dar was off and bad moods leads to book too many!!

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