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New Dom – French

I found this on one Happn. He if half French Half Lebanese.

Lets just say things got intense as soon as he told me about last nights antics. He said how he took a girl home, tied her up, blindfolded her, fucked her and ….. got his friend to come and do the same while she was no wiser!

WOW! He is a voyeur, pervert and my master.

Our Whatsapp conversation soon changes to sex….. he had a new approach, “my last happn date I took her to 40 Pont street” he went silent for me to research. Agent Provocoteur store. I reply “so the boy likes lingerie?”

“I made her cum for the 1st time in the changing rooms” he proceeds to send an image of cuffs (ankle and hand) neatly positioned on his bed. I tell him “Aw that’s sweet” but actually nerves have set in and I think This is going to be very interesting. ….

He is small (only 5’6 – Damn it!), dark, good teeth, intelligent and devilishly handsome. He has a very sinister side, I can tell.

He walked into the bar just as I was finishing a conversation with my drunken mother! He kisses me on both cheeks and straight away goes in for the lip kiss. I back off and say goodbye to my mother!!

We sit out on a balmy summers night. Its 9pm so slowly getting dark, allowing peoples alter egos be unveiled. It doesn’t take long for the conversation to turn to my 1st Dom (Italian Stallion), fetlife and what he likes. He wants to watch other men fuck me. I scared yet excited. He will not fuck me until someone else has.

I make lingering eye contact and I feel strangely relaxed talking with him.

I politely excuse myself to go to the bathroom and stand. “Bring me your string” I smile and do so.

I have never done that before. He puts them in his pocket but brings them out as assess them, he likes them but says they are not as wet as expected. He replaces them, “lets go to a club” I know exactly what he means. He wants to dominate the scene with me in the middle. I agree on the condition that he looks after me. “I will have full control of everyone around you” as his hadn slides in my bra and pinches my nipples, hard. I wince, he grins.

He decides he wanted to see the goods 1st . As we walk, his hand dives down my jeans and inside me, of course I am wet. As people pass the otherside of the street, I realise that there is someone behind and I pull him out and nervously laugh.

We walk down to his basement flat in South Ken. He stops in the small dark courtyard “Take your Trousers off” here. Now” I look at him nervously and do so.

FFFUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKK!!!

In the process I rip the new canella out of my leg! Shit! I stop and explain that he has 45 min. we go inside and I take the trousers off and place the pump in my bag. Shit! Fuck!

The flat is surprisingly spacious, open plan and of course tidy. I continue into his bedroom where he stands proud with a leather crop in hand. Its smaller and blacker than the itallian’s. “turn around” I obey and grip onto the door frame preparing for a split second befor the leather makes contact with my round ass cheeks. My winces get louder as my grip tightens. And then nothing. Im scared to turn around without his permission. Whack. It’s a new sort of leather this time and I catch it out of the corner of my eye. It’s a full length (about 4ft) whip. Its feels good as the leather and metal wrap my arse. My body language collapses at the last stroke and he responds. He’s good.

He strokes down my spine and flips my hips to face him. He kisses me hard against the wall as his feet push my legs apart. Stepping back he admires what is now his, then slaps my cunt hard and walks off to the kitchen. The front door is open the whole time and im nervous of a friend turning up!

He smokes his spliff in the kitchen and invites me to join and stand for him. His work burns to the surface, oh how ive missed it!

He asks about the pump and I try to reassure him that I’ll be fine as long as I swing by home 1st, thinking I’ll leave it off and inject so not to risk it happening again. He spanks me with his bare hand as I pull on his spliff. I missed that too.

Get dressed, I obey. He continues with the questioning. He sounds nervous and I try to reassure him… oh how the tables have turned!

We get an Uber and he changes his mind on the way. “I need to read up on this 1st” its sort of sweet really. He wants to care for me, beat me, romance me, make me his. Done.

But They’re Carb Free!

I had every intention of going to Body pump at 630 this morning. The Buzzing and sining from my phone attacks my ears as the cold nip in the air tickles my nose. Out from the cocoon I go. Bloodtest. 3.4. Great! That’s a mint whip (M&S), lowering my bolus to 0% for 1 hour and back to the warm duvet cocoon. No Body pump.

I wake up at 12 in a diabetic hangover and BG’s up at 17! Feeling groggy, podgy and the spots on my chin are rumbling, I open the fridge and see what I can snacl on. Boredom is my enemy. Yes I could and know I should find something to do, anything, even my Christmas shopping (Eugh). I don’t want to leave the house. To make me feel worse my date this evening is not replying – fucking time waster!! I would have found someone else to go out with, it is Thursday after all.

My skype chat pings – it can only be James. James…… We have never met, just cyber met through POF (I’m covering all bases – POF, Tinder, Luxy, Happn and Fet). He seemed sweet but I knew straight away he was into kink, proper kink. He’s into consentual non consent, whips, belts, choking. He’s always said that he’s going to come over and I wont have a say what he does to me. It dangerous but exciting. He asks if im horny. Well, yes. Standard. As always! “meeting you at 3” he orders. “I’m at lunch” “im coming over at 3” this goes on until I shock him. In the time ive left it I have had a random job interview over the phone, definitely was not expecting it and made me shaking like a leaf. I think I fucked it. I tell James and he says that he can bring a bottle too. Brilliant! “come over”

I give a vague address, tell him what im wearing, what I want him to do. He tells me what he will do. “Fine come over and we’ll discuss safe words and boundaries over the wine.”

“Ok….. Ah shit! My meeting’s been changed to earlier.”

“Flake”

I go to the fridge and pick some more. Pork Crackling – That’s right. The Gods that are M&S food development team have done it again (The food hall is my church). Pork Crackling sticks. They’re carb free, They’re carb free, They’re carb free! My left arm twinges if I actually think about it! Chomp through 3 of them as my phone pings again. Sam. He’s from Abu Dhabi and taking me out tomorrow evening. He claims he works in fashion and claims he wants more than a fuck…. THEN WHY ARE YOU LEADING WITH FUCKING?!!! “tantric sex” “are you horny” “do you like sex” Pahaha. Im still going on a date with him. I challenge him and he says that’s why he wants to take me out, but asking my dress size? I’m dubious. Hope he’s as hot as his pictures!!

In the mean time there are 2 more dates being set up. Both from fet. Monday’s date im nervous about seems extreme. French, 6”6 wants a Sub. I will be meeting wearing a red scarf. (by his request of course – Glad I have a selection. Vintage Liberty? Or Alexander McQueen?) Tuesday’s also wants a Sub, but seems more vanilla, until we close the doors of course! All I can hope is that my markings from the previous night don’t anger him.

Smashed a body combat class at 2030 and now here I am picking at more food, nuts and cereal, waiting for sleep to set in. With the wind whistling through the fucking broken seals and bloods still high from exercise, I’m retiring. No fucking but certainly set up for the next few days at least….

Food: Crap

Exercise: Moderate

Men: Meh…. I’m sure I wont be waiting long.

 

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“POP”….. There goes my Blogging Cherry

I have decided that I am going to do an experiment all about weight loss, food, drink and real life living.

“Just another one of those looking for attention and a little motivation to get through it” I hear you all say.

Well, yes. However I have 2 new angles to come from. Firstly I have type 1 diabetes. Had it since 1992 and am (trying) to control it with an insulin pump. Secondly, and this is the biggie…. It’s 10 days before Christmas and no I am not going to stop eating mince pies, drinking (copious amounts) or a turkey dinner or several.

SHIT!! Yes I will be taking pictures getting bigger or smaller and yes I will be brutally honest. The honesty will be EVERYTHING from drinking, fried and baked goods (mmmm Baked goods) to drug intake and fucking….. It is exercise after all.

The reason I want to do it? See if it is possible to “live” without being that wet wipe at a party drinking soda water and only having the 1 lettuce wrap. And its also a personal challenge of controlling my bloods and quite possible remembering a little more of my London nights.

My accounts are very honest and open from my drug and alcohol consumption to my sexual encounters and dates. Weighty issues also.

I will try to blog everyday.

Please be aware that this is not medical advice and is solely from my personal experience, encounters and my thoughts.

This is day one I guess….